If you

If you stay, so will I;
If you walk, I’ll try
It asks too much of me, but I’ll try,
If you want to go away,
You can, I won’t ask you to stay.

If you try harder,
I’ll make efforts to equal yours,
If you call upon me, I’ll return your call.
If you say you’ll be around,
I’ll gladly acknowledge your presence.

If you come to me,
I’ll turn around to watch you,
Gather yourself together
I will watch you pick up the pieces,

If you want to you can,
You can bring your tears to me,
No, I’ll never ask to be heard
Even if my heart weighs heavy,
I’ll try and remain steady.

These feelings are for you,
You may never ask for them,
But gladly you receive ,
All I give
Ever so humble,
Ever so polite,

Yes, this all I can give,
Yes, there is no more,
No more of myself
That I can share.

You can never be much more,
Than all that you are
Never inseparable,
Never close,
Always unaware.

I will remain guarded,
I will be contained in your presence,
I will remain defensive,
I will remain absorbent,
No, nothing more
Never, anything more.

I saw her on the street one day....

Should it be blue bangles or green?
No, I won’t distinguish,
Not today,
I will wear all;
All of my jewellery,
I will accoutre myself in my best,
In the best that this life has bestowed.

I will walk the streets today
In a different stride,
Not in my usual submissive mode,
But in a consciously confident saunter,
For reasons not apparent to this world,
I know inquisitive eyes will follow me today unlike yesterday,

I shall choose the same path,
I want familiar faces to see me,
With time to spare;
I will stop and let this world stare,
I’m sure they would today, unlike yesterday;

I leave behind no more than another carefree soul;
I have not much to call my own,
I carry my possessions with me,
To help me where I intend to be,
I have been largely unnoticed until today,
But I will be noticed today, unlike yesterday,

My walk through life has faced uneven roads,
Roads that discouragingly wind uphill;
But today has taken a different turn, unlike yesterday

I feel taller; I ‘m filled with anticipation,
I getting closer to my beginning,
I am euphoric, I feel divine,
As wait for the abyss to engulf me,
I close my eyes to this brightness,
I feel no pain today, unlike yesterday.